Response to ‘I Kissed A Girl’

Tyler says (12:59 AM):i found a song

Alynna says (12:59 AM): abt?

Tyler (12:59 AM): this one

Tyler says (12:59 AM): haha

Alynna says (12:59 AM): OMG

Alynna says (12:59 AM): yeah, my bf sent it to me =.=”

Tyler says (1:00 AM): hahaha

Tyler says (1:00 AM): i watched her video of it before i heard the song

Tyler says (1:00 AM): she kinda pulls off the 70’s look with her singing quite well i think

Alynna says (1:02 AM): i didn’t pay much attention to the vid

Alynna says (1:02 AM): i was more going, wth is the bf trying to tell me?

Alynna says (1:02 AM): lol!

Tyler says (1:03 AM): hahaha

Tyler says (1:03 AM): hint hint

Alynna says (1:03 AM): KISS A GIRL!

Alynna says (1:03 AM): lol

Tyler says (1:03 AM): hahaha

Tyler says (1:03 AM):we like watching

Alynna says (1:11 AM): yes, believe me, i know

Alynna says (1:12 AM): what’s so fascinating abt it anyway?

Tyler says (1:12 AM): it’s a guy thing, don’t ask

Tyler says (1:12 AM): it’s basically one girl = hot, two girls = hot squared

Alynna says (1:13 AM): hahahahha

Alynna says (1:13 AM): interesting equation

Tyler says (1:13 AM): and there’s the part where the imagination goes wild while watching

Tyler says (1:14 AM): of course, we’ll never admit to it though

Tyler says (1:14 AM): haha

Alynna says (1:14 AM): oh, he probably would!

There are friends, and there are best friends.

Sure, I was angry and called her a bitch, but above all else, I was hurt. I tried to push it away as nothing, that all Nadia was doing was trying to make me turn up, but her reply came back. I’m not one to take words lightly and I knew that if I had to think of a whole list of people who’d come up with THE right words, she’d probably be right at the top.

I replied, still trying to sound neutral, but her reply was patronising, as though she was placating a child, and yet trying to make a last ditch attempt at firing a guilt I didn’t feel. I keep thinking, it’s not about her, her opinion does not matter. After all, it’s our best friend who’s celebrating her 21st, not her. But did she really need to take the moral high ground? Oh, piss off. She doesn’t live in the middle of nowhere, she has transport of her own, her family doesn’t live with her under the same roof. Definitely not the same fucking shoes she’s walking in. I don’t expect sympathy, merely understanding. When I explained my situation to my best friend, she understood perfectly fine. I remember now that Nadia and I have never reached that level that I share with my best friends and I’m trying not to hold what she said against her, even if it still cuts me.

The residue of the hurt is still sitting here. Along with the box of chocolates she requested for, and a chocolate scented soap I thought she’d love.

‘It’s not always making it at a time when other people can that counts; it’s when they can’t.’

I won’t take back my words.